Friday, April 24, 2009

It has been years since we took a full family photo. Usually, we either do not coincide with each other or we were too busy entertaining other guests. But last year, we finally got to take a Raya family photo. Unfortunately, none of us realised it was gonna be the last one. The last one with Pak Long in it. I've always see Pak Long as the healthy and hearty man. But going through his latest photos from Raya last year up to the birthday celebration they had for Mardhiyah, I just realised how old and thin he has become. I failed to see that he wasn't what he used to be and because of that, I failed to realise that we have all grown older and our days are all numbered. I thought I had at least another 20 years of Pak Long around, I didn't even get 2 years...

Yes, I have not gotten over the fact that he's no longer here. Forever. That word, forever, seems so hard for me to digest. Everytime I talk about him or think about him, I get very emotional... I am never good with letting go, how do I start now?

Rest well, Pak Long...